JustBeUrself

WHAT A CAT(ch)

I am struck right now trying to decipher what Derrida said in the two page long passage that came in CAT-05. Terms such as ‘LOGOCENTRISM’,’DECONSTRUCTION’, ‘DIFFE`RANCE’ are trying to confuse & create a sense of tension in my mind and it is this time that the analyst part my personality kicks in and I think I understood what he didn’t meant & didn’t imply. I plan to study more, please don’t get me wrong. I am a normal engineering student with lots errands to run. But I wish I could study more. The countdown which I started on my last birthday inches closer to its finale. Whenever I give a mock I just think that ok I have two & a half hours to myself, I am cool, but one questions crop up- PURPOSE. Do I really have the driven personality required by IIM’s . Last two months went to orkutting and playing stupid online games & puzzles. My mind wanders to the night I sat with sunny and chalked down my career plan, AIM IIM-A was the resolution and we planned that this was the opportunity we had been waiting to make our destiny. We believed in ourselves, I still carry the faith, I believe in myself. Rather this question “WHY MBA, WHY IIM’s” comes back in my mind. Is it just the lure of gold or a status symbol? The answer comes in hazy busts, I want to explore. I might land up in a good software company, be really happy coding and debugging, but what after a few years down the line, I might feel constricted as a programmer, I might feel confined. MbA would open up new vistas for me, I hope. I might not make the all-rounder I-banker but I am just happy being the good guy. It may sound clichéd but I like to observe and reflect. I approach various situations in a bipartisan manner and MBA will equip me to dissect it to the core, I would be ecstatic getting to the real issues at hand & creating value. I got a few great friends, who stand by me. Who understand eccentricities are an integral part of me. I may be really happy, but behind the happiness is many a times a feeling of numbness, I can’t explain it. I can’t help it. They believe in me, M says “GINNI just stick to your job”, Gagan inspires me to rise over expectations, maa supports me a lot. Sam says “Bhai tuh CHEETAH hai”. I am thankful to all. I have a purpose and I decide I would work hard all my life, MBA or S/W field – Nothing Else MAtters .

I am grateful to THE insane intense competition, I will always remember the adage

“DIAMOND IS THE COAL THAT STRUCK TO IT’S JOB”

@ sh d : Guess u get the reason behind my insomnia :)

p.s.: Is it an irony that my birthday is just a day before cat??? D'Uh

Labels: CAT, insipration, self-motivation

posted by Ginni @ 9:20 PM