JustBeUrself

wish I could LIE

a very basic philosophy of my life -" I feel good when I do good, I feel bad when I do bad"... & guess what, I voilate It pretty often so a lotsa sorrys & thanks fall off my tongue cuz am basically just a HUMAN after all... last evening was Ms. Smile's b'day bash & we were having a gala time.. but life probably wanted to teach me another lesson... varun's digicam fell off from d edge of table... It's my fault...I shouldn't have kept it open & on d edge... well Life has it's share of fun & it wanna teach me more lessons & bleed my heart from core...
I tried to be calm but I FUCKING BROKE under tension... there' were no tears but my FUCKED face was looking more fucked up then ever... fuck my head...
then Ms Smile (her effervescent self) : come on jasprit these things happen... theek ho jayega... can & could I not act cool... don't know dear... maybe u r right... am a loser...
Good Part
had planned a surprise which didn't materialise... uff... but still I tried 2 make her smile...
then chilled up & COLONEL's chicken to me is like diamond given 2 a girl...
had a little photu session with her & her friends... camera phones this time...
Introspection time
over the time would I be the guy I want myself I want 2 be... maybe yes or not,,, would my one-sided love materialise.. don't have a clue... am pretty confused cuz I care too much... would himesh stop crying... I guess not...
Concluding REMARKS
what matters is that I HAVE A FOCUS & a PURPOSE in my life... IIM-A & Ms. Smile... I may act insecure but I am not gonna be down for long... 90 dayz 4 my birthday & 91 dayz 4 CaT... am THE GAME...

P.S.
Oh my love, if it's all I can do, I'll take the fall 4 U
Cos I will soar when I lay down with you and give my all 4 U

posted by Ginni @ 10:13 AM