Me & MYSELF
well got this kewl stuff 4m blogthings... guess what it's not kinda fake,,,it evaluates ur gut reaction 2 ascertain d kind of personality u have...
| You Are 4: The Individualist |
You are sensitive and intuitive, with others and yourself.
You are creative and dreamy... plus dramatic and unpredictable.
You're emotionally honest, real, and easily hurt.
Totally expressive, others always know exactly how you feel. |
well I would say dat lotsa things r true in here... my intution compares 2 dubya's terror plan...
am lot many things but let it be... maybe am a little forlorn... time is on my side & I ROCK...
4 D LOST GOD
well lotsa folks & friend been pestering me over my "ATHIEST" status in my orkut profile...so here I present my take on GOD & religion...
well I do say that great individual's like
jesus, lord buddha, muhhamad, guru nanak & many more did walk upon earth,,, they were great & charismatic LEADERS... did had some powers... BUT basically they showcased a path of RIGHTEOUUS living... i.e. LIVE & LET LIVE kinda stuff...
soo as to lower heartburn & enjoying life... THEY were AWESOME.. all peace out...
but down the line their philosophy was become a puppet in hand of rulers & proxy clergymen..
THE term ''RELIGION'' was invented as kind of an order...
either u r pro-christ or anti-christ.. either u r a pious muslim or infideal.. either u r a gursikh or tankhiya... c'mon give me a break...maybe in older times it was a binding factor... kinda HERD MENTALITY.. when nos. was strength... It's great business u know..
religion is now just reduced to identification tag... D real teachings of humanity & humility r given a secondary status... d concept of merry go round "GOD" is propagated.. who awards & punishes people.. any rational & spritual person would know this fad I presume.. and thereby I REJECT
religion... all peace out...
GOD 4 me is "TRUTH" & I swear I don't see lotsa truth floating around me... but I am on d journey 2 unravel truth..
GOD BLESS U ALL
A cArnival Called LIFE
can we ever find d true purpose of our existence.. In between of all d turmoil howcome we may find d truth.. this question should not be asked by a young jovial guy of 2o (going on 21) who has so many beautiful & happy moments 2 look forward to...
but by nature expect me to flatter & deceive my identity...
expect me 2 crib when I don't stand upto expectations,,, expect me 2 shout when im insecure... expect me to laugh at smallest of jokes...
expect me 2 celebrate a carnival called life...
But today I lower my expectations... I WILL for a change... change is disruptive,,, but change brings out d best out of oneself... I might not succeed... but I will give my best shot... I will feed d rain of pains... I will stand up.... world might burn away... her memories would fade someday not so soon... but can I forget d name of my saviour... bet I CAN... CAN I be mean & schemeing... I can TRY... but can one forget a person who he calls his LIFE... TONIGHT I pray 2 d god who doesn't give a damn 2 lash me... 2 hit me with a storm so severe that I am numbed 4ever& so that I fade away... ThEn I would start afresh... it's all I can do... It's all a game, avoiding failure, when true colors will & do bleed...
Cos without your love my life ain't nothing... pretty well am NOT gonna lose... AM GONNA CELEBRATE A CARNIVAL CALLED LIFE...
don't walk away,when d world is burning,, don't walk away when d heart is yearning...
wish I could LIE
a very basic philosophy of my life
-" I feel good when I do good, I feel bad when I do bad"... & guess what, I voilate It pretty often so a lotsa sorrys & thanks fall off my tongue cuz am basically just a HUMAN after all... last evening was Ms. Smile's b'day bash & we were having a gala time.. but life probably wanted to teach me another lesson... varun's digicam fell off from d edge of table... It's my fault...I shouldn't have kept it open & on d edge... well Life has it's share of fun & it wanna teach me more lessons & bleed my heart from core...
I tried to be calm but I FUCKING BROKE under tension... there' were no tears but my FUCKED face was looking more fucked up then ever... fuck my head...
then
Ms Smile (her effervescent self) : come on jasprit these things happen... theek ho jayega... can & could I not act cool... don't know dear... maybe u r right... am a loser...
Good Parthad planned a surprise which didn't materialise... uff... but still I tried 2 make her smile...
then chilled up & COLONEL's chicken to me is like diamond given 2 a girl...
had a little photu session with her & her friends... camera phones this time...
Introspection timeover the time would I be the guy I want myself I want 2 be... maybe yes or not,,, would my one-sided love materialise.. don't have a clue... am pretty confused cuz I care too much... would himesh stop crying... I guess not...
Concluding REMARKS
what
matters is that I HAVE A FOCUS & a PURPOSE in my life... IIM-A & Ms. Smile... I may act insecure but I am not gonna be down for long... 90 dayz 4 my birthday & 91 dayz 4 CaT... am THE GAME...
P.S.
Oh my love, if it's all I can do, I'll take the fall 4 U
Cos I will soar when I lay down with you and give my all 4 U
Yeppi Birthday Ms. Smile...
Happy birthday to the one I love!
All my joy goes out to you today!
Perhaps I learned, the months you were away,
Part of me moves always as you move.
You're the yearning distance can't remove,
Bringing life to reveries cold and gray;
In thoughts of you my dreams and passions play,
Rejoicing in a hope that time will prove.
Today I celebrate your day of birth,
Happy in the hour that brought you here,
Drawn by all the music of your worth,
A time for gratitude that you are near.
You are the one on Earth I hold most dear.
How can I tell you that you are my angel
When you know you are my angel anyway?
I love you more on this, your day of birth.
HAPPY BIRTHDAY...
Love u always...
will TIMe pass by...
happy birthday MOTHER INDIA... I salute u... ur unending love & care & compassion is lifeline of a billion souls.. i.e. 10000000 mouths, stomachs, tounges, brains & billions of feelings & WISHES...
am proud of u..
well today was xciting day... can't imagine that such infine love & bliss can be showered on U...
more later..
we will fly away from here...
Kabhi Alvida Naa Kehna Part-I
it's not one of those movie review... I have not seen d movie & don't know whether I would be watching it or not... this post lists what I ,yes ME, thinks about these genres of movies & serials on the whole... these ARE big INDIAN dramas... which will make u smile,smirk & ofcourse cry at the drop of hat... these drama things happen on our lives but am sure we hardly get struck over it & have become accustomed to move over...
Unrequited Love. Unanswered prayers. Unsuccessful marriage.. KANK has all of these & much more... maybe am immature & cann't handle all the real life emotion... even If ONE tear is shed due to my idiocity & stupidity I feel BAD... Maa & dad have had enough heartburn due to me... I made Ms. Smile cry..I felt soo messed up... I simply cann't bear tears & worries... {even crocodile tears} ...
MAYBEam afraid that I would not love my w(L)ife one day..
am afraid I would fail somewhere down the line...
am afraid I would not care for some else's emotion someday...
am afraid I would let down my dreams...
am afraid of many things...
but does these dramas & saas-bahu serials showcase reality... I hope not... am content watching reckless voilence & strategic movies... boistrous reality shows r my cup of tea.. I can not handle emotional dramas...
till den I might try to sleep & yes BIG GUYS don't cry... but everybody knows d truth... I don't have a reason to cry yet & I hope I don't get any reasons anytime in future.. maybe I will cry never.. i didn't cry watching BLACK... but did during Hum aapke kaun hain... became butt of ridicule by all my aunties,,c'mon I was 9 year old cutie...
what d heck am gonna watch KANK & keep a straight face... movie review sometime later...But we will fly away from here...
Fly Away From Here
Listening to aerosmith... yeah AM GONNA move on & Fly away...
gotta find a waygotta do what it takes
cuz it's all in our handswe all make mistakes yeah,
but it's never too late to start again,
take another breath and say another prayer
and fly away from here anywhere, yeah,
i don't care we'll just fly away from hereour hopes and dreams areout there somewhere
Just say another prayer Ms. Smile & I assure we will fly... I love U my life...
every word u speak makes me think... & we will pack up & leave anywhere for our dreams...
WE will see a bluer sky...
Thanx aerosmith....
Ubharta & Doobta Sitara
naah I have not been watching a lotof mtv & V...am just plain feeling bored... bearshare & limewire are not properly working & thought I wud blabber a little...
10 mins before 1 a.m.
dad(woken up by heavy pounding of mettalica & laxmikant-pyarelal): hummhh.. beta kya kar rahe hoon..
me(feeling bored):studying...u know CAT prep & engineering projects... it's tough..
dad(stirred but not shaken): U mean u r listening to music at unearthly hour & pounding ur head like ill-fed tihar jail inmates & U xpect me to believe u,,, chatting kar rha tha?
me(c'mon speak up something): ummhh.. well dad yahoo is giving 10 million dollors for setting up a record chatting time.. am kinda participating in that...look am feeling lucky so let me give it a shot...(lost CAT expression)...
dad(finally EYES WIDE OPEN): Are u gone nuts? u want to chat on yahoo,,listen to this utensil clashing & clamping sounds... wen u have so much too study... yeh tera net & comp hostel mein hi acha tha,,,, zindagi bhar dhake khayega... put up some efforts for ur CAT... mishra'g aaj 10lakh ka check encash kra rahe the jo unke bete ne umhrica se bheja tha...
me(looking as convincing as jayalalitha in SAUNa belt ad): dAaad c'mon u know am pretty serious about my life.. I mean I have already chosen d bride of our khandaan... what else u want... CAT ho jayega--19th nov...
dad(suniel shetty expression): what do u mean? CaT to ho jayega 19th ko par tera kya rank kya aayega? apni biwi ko kya khilayega...kapde kya phenega...
me(as inspired as A fly in search of dung to lay eggs): well dad tension nahi lene ka... apun kuch na kuch to kar hi lega... I will design a new chatting software...& also a search engine...also a social networking site... an Operating system...aapaka beta Bill Gates ke saath dinner khayega(not candle light by any chance perse)..
MA(woken up by inspirational speech): kya aap mere munna ko pareshan karte rehte hoon...
dad(master of all,jack of none): he has been listening to music like there's no tommorrow.. not studying,,,wasting our hard earned money on mobile phones & there bills... d pesticolas & gol-gapppas... chotu halwai & preet video parlour abh iske ache dusre ghar gaye hai.. & u are saying I mustn't shout at him...
MA(c'mon ekta kapoor go to hell & fry): Listen beta...
me(smart ass): yes MAAAAA
MA(obviously moved): we have worked very hard our all lives & expect U to be good human (earning millions of $s) being... so STUDY or get lost...
me(screaming & howling): okk maa... am gonna study the whole night..
clock: 3:30 am
am still chatting to elina from new zealand..
spent another half hour orkutting...
won online black-jack on yahoo...(I don't have any idea whatsoever about cards but my 12th sense never betrays me)...
googled nicole+pussycat dolls...--not much success...
googled kareena kapoor+cutie+wil u marry me..--- only japnese porn sites & investment banks in CAYMEN islands decided to respond...
mailed tonnes of bulk mail to every mail id that comes through forwarded mails... sometimes It's in thousands...particularly in case of AMY BRUCE wali forward...
scribbled pathetic scraps on scrapbooks....
4:15 a.m
well am in contemplative mood now.. should I watch FInal Destination-3 or White Noise... it's so difficult.. just can't imagine missing fd-3..teen death phenomenon is going to be my subject doctorol theses...
but I can't afford to miss d phenomenon of strange white noises..
It's tough.. life is tough... but LIFE is all about making choices.. U make a choice & another door(why not window or shutters) opens up in front of u...
d'oh I m gonna watch scary movie 4...
no.. kabhi alvida naa kehna posted on mastana.net...here I come...here I go..
cya..blog...am dumb..u know that....
LOVE LIFE
Shattered Mirrors---Swollen Hearts----Disguised Dreams
Some Fake feelings of a fake heart in throes of Fake Reality
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Life' has it's share of fun & she does play lotsa game with me...maybe it's my fault....thought love was a one-way street,but love is all around...I may go through a little pain....tear my heart open & look up for a little pain...cuz wen it does cry I yearn for u my angel....and cry it often does... My weakness is that I care too much....maybe letting go was an option...but how could I when I am sooo lost without u...I shout out for a little sanity...am walking on shards of broken pieces of my heart...still waiting for u Ms. Smile...am always there for u & am still thinking...========================================================
disclaimer: this post was composed under influence of sleep,so kindly don't mind... just trying to sound mature again,,, but falling way short....
love Life...
CaT-06---- my new girlfriend
If looks could kill I would be dead by now... my life
would be putting (probably throwing) white roses & other stuff(my maniacal memories) on my grave... but alas Life has its share of fun & even intense x-ray beams & laser guns fail to penetrate my hidedesign...oops did I infringe a trademark..who cares...
Coming back from giving yet another mock test... looking as forlorn & shaken from core as K.L Saigal in Devdas or some other b/w movie... I gave a serious thought what to do in future & how to do it... Last night's OMKARA had set my mind rolling & during the whole duration of mock exam I was wondering why I had not given a thought 2 Kareena Kapoor... the village belle act..leaving ur comfy home for the sake of ur love(or lust) was just too gud to be make-believe.. my grey cells started lighting up & I was making plans how to meet & propose kareena for a major portion of exam time... yeah It wud show on my score... d'oh...
well as far as career plans are concerned.. CaT prep is simply not upto mark... Im not an inch of slogger & do posses a brain with multiple misplaced connections... so I really need some pumped up action or else I would end up sweeping floors for living,,, my placement record is a big DUD....
so I have decided to befriend this feline for once & for all... her name is CaT-06 & we have a date on 19th nov...d day before I would turn LEGAL age to marry..err kareena where r u..
she has a vorocious temper & is waiting with sharp nails to welcome me... but all pussies have one weakness..no pun intended...she is really friendly but moody & selective... so why not study & contemplate all the features & intracicies of her every move & vagarious nature...
I will be ready with my options if she turns topsy-turvy on our first date... why not try her dummies for awhile before striking with all the weapons loaded & stocked in my barrel..
let's see... almost 100 days to go,, & Ms. Smile turns 21 two dayz after India aunt turns 60... uff "Age is an issue of mind over matter. If you don't mind, it doesn't matter.”
GO India go..
hw long War Of terror wiLL gO On
http://beirutupdate.blogspot.com/this is d blog of a 30 year old woman who puts up in Beirut, yes the place we see being bombed on ndtv & CNN.... She is in middle of a war zone, with missiles & rockets pounding her country 24x7.... pray for her safety...
Above all the others we'll fly,This brings tears to my eyes.
DosE oF reALitY::::::: tAste of Hypocrisy
Hello my friend we meet again
It's been a while where should we begin ...
feels like forever....
StaY up & die....
buT nEvEr DiE alone...
Should I kill In ur sleep...
oR dIe TryiN.,.,.,;
Plz give peace A cHance....
Israel has been pounding tonnes of bombs over lebanon & the great world powers are probably waiting for a nuclear attack by Israel before calling for ceasefire....ok u have the world's only super-power as ur godfather but it simply doesn't give ya any right to kill & maim people just on the basis of their religion & ethincity... I would like to add Auschwitz should have never happened...never In human history a tragedy so gruesome fell upon humanity... but should Hiroshima-Nagasaki should have been allowed after this tragedy...or countless riots that engulf our own India...or guerilla warfare goin on infinitely in Africa,,,, WHY do Israel wants to add upon the miseries of people... U can Kill terrorists but not Terrorism... For that a meaningful dialogue is the only solution... We have future of young & innocent people on our hands....
We shall find peace, We shall hear angels,We shall see the sky sparkling with diamonds.hope pakistan people also get the facts straight,,,the blame game can go on & on ...but is it worth it? kashmir has been ruined by stubborness & idiocity of politicians ,military generals,IsI, RaW and guess what not... kashmiris have their beautiful lives ruined & we are still baying for each other's blood...
Mumbai blasts & Karachi blasts are two sides of same coin... Fundamentalism threatens to blow of the secular society of India & pakistan...
So can US & other Great countries(DAMN) stand up for once & all and give peace a Chance,,, I guess not... It's for us to stand up and be a Change-Agent...
"The peace makers shall be called the children of God"- BIbLE
